my life is in such a terribe mess! haish =(

maybe i shld do some planning abt it. but i dunno how!
there are just some things that i cant control
love and family
crappy crazy.zzz


and i had been spending too much money. seriously TOO MUCH.


F MY LIFE LA.&(@$^@$^*@$&(*$

i admit i am a idiot when it come to love

but i wun gave up !

today is 26th dec. one day after xmas.
although i know xmas is crap
i din expect it to be so horrible


on the eve of xmas. i went bugis to shop
went over to see a frenz, gave me attitude
went over to orchard to shop
met up with euu
but end up also cant celebrate it with euu.sigh

so end up. in a pub drinking meng jiu. drowning all those sorrow away.



christmas was such a great day !
i lay on the bed n rot every single second away!
called a frenz to pei me for dinner !
but of cos. she ps me and went to eat with her all others damn frenz.
and later in the nite.
i was fucking piss
i dunno if i shld be angry or upset.
perhap both.
dulanzzzzzzzzzz



o ya. i know it quite a normal reaction for ppl to fall down on their hands. but euu be careful ya? dun hurt yourself le.

FUCK!

i just went to a blog.
i dunno i shld laugh at him or wadever shit


FUCKS x2

hao ma bu ci hui tou cao
i hope this arent true


FUCKSx3

i am fucking losing all my confidence.


















I AM PISSED WITH MYSELF ()*@&#$(^$&)@(#&#$(%^

wad about us

wad about the things we gone thru

wad am i suppose to do~!


today i went shopping at mini toons and after spending fifty dollars i was entitled a membership card. woohoo. actually. i went back home. i was quite shag. i spend fifty dollar on those stuff. cant believe it.
ooo! and i brought a levis wallet. i think it quite ok. and the old one went back to the box when i first get it. yupps. a bit se bu de.hahaha.



i had been getting emo again!! spending too many days alone at home is just simply no good for my little brainy)=
its 10.14pm now.
dun think she will sms me today again
SAD:

i am thinking getting a new laptop or a new pc. the current one is very unstable. SAD:
NO MONEY.


o well
how could you lost sumthing that you dont even have
i dunno=(
things had been different
ke neng shi wo xiang tai duo le.

























but even if we are world apart.
i would alway know where you are.


















cos you are alway in my heart

today i sold my samsung phone to a second hand shop for seventy dollar! D= everything in it is goooone! how sad. nvm it ok!


my parent brought me to M1 shop. to shop for new phone. they were pretty excited to see w580i and was very convinced that i should buy that phone. i guess it was pretty ok. but K850i was really cool. but it was way toooo ex. so end up with the constant encourage by my mummy. i brough w580i. will be getting it tml after twelve since they no stock today. w580i black limit edition (: i just hope i wun get too long to use to sony sms style-.- yupps. i shld be getting a 2gig memory card soon once i got my leg ok n tyming ok to simlim square.


o ya! i was really happy ytd afternoon. i tot i had lost a great friend for good. but our friendship prove to be too strong for that? =D.

and i went to TM to watch golden compass with another great friend. the polar bear fight was imba. and it just really too gay for two guys to watch a movie tgt=/ shld not try next tym. HAHA.


counting down ! ( not to christmas )

FOUR WEEKS TO NO BRACE
THREE WEEKS TO CHICKEN
AHHHHH~!

你說你不捨得
當初卻爲什麽選這離開我

当我说我无能为力
不是说你伤我心
而是我己进了力
却不再可能可以给你
你原本所要看的结局

不是不理你
只是不知道该说什么才好
失望的我
现在真的不知道该怎么面对你

绝对没怪你
事情也己发生了
结局怎样没关系
最多也只能叹气

就是因为对不起
这么好,这样重要的你
才让我现在这么不知所措

知道你不能再做什么了
也没奢望你能
只是不要再说对不起
因为真的我受不起

若真对你有所批评
这将对你太不公平
当时一定在等着快乐的回应
自己怎么会潦倒这样的结局
把错放在你身上也的确很容易
但就因为你一直对我超有诚意
这次也肯定不是故意
我又怎么能怪你

我问问自己后悔吗?
我不后悔
我是很伤心
但不是因为不告诉你
只是因一个谁都不能说的秘密
暂时不会告诉你

真的真的知道你没有怪过我
你就是这样
从来不会去怪任何人
其实把错放在我身上很容易
但是你就永远不会这样做

neither the present nor the future will change the history.
some people choose to put away their memories.
but i choose to learn from it.
different decisions led to different ending.
whenever i look back.
who is right, who is wrong
i no longer has the ability to differentiate already.
but whatever it is
the angel will be there
the gurdian never dies.
cos the beautiful memories would alway stay.
thank you.

thank euu for ytd de lunch

and pei mi watch de movie

thanks a lot kay=)

well today da xiong jie jie came visit me after i call her up. and she brough me mac breakfast. thank you =)). hahaha. after that euu come oso after i call euu up. sorry to disturb euu sleeping ya?. hahaha. o ya!. thank for the flower k? i love it =). o well. we did talk talk today. haha. but i really at a loss bahs.


i really muz get my leg to be ok to be ready for euu. grr. muz jia you



will euu rather thing to remain in this way? i dunno.i dun wan things to be stuck here

today is the fourth days after my operation of my leg. o well. i had been doing exercise for it to allow it recover faster. but still. it soooo pain. sigh. dun really kno wad i can do also. i had been doing excessive exercise for the knee this tym round. dun rmb doing so much last tym. this tym. i really wanna stand up again. i wanna walk again. almost all my school mate had start going out looking for jobs or even start working alr. but me? just staying at home being in a very pathetic situation. sigh. talking abt sec 4 sch mates. i doubt i can even make it to the prom night. hais.

well well. enough for the leg.how pain it is. i gonna pull it thru. it gonna be alright. and i gonna be strong.



and i swear that once my leg is ok. i will do the impossible task. but for the tym being. i will bite my teeth and move on. now that euu are gonna work. i guess there will be nobody to fill the void in my heart. and the main is. will euu ?

well well. i was admitted to the hospital yesterday! SGH ! for the operation my right knee which was seriously injured? i was dead nervous and was really scare.thank euu for waking at seven to sent me e msg. really thanks a lot ya? haha. i was pushed inside the surgery room and i was really very tense. and there is this nice guy who keep cheer me up by telling me lame jokes! he really brough a smile across my face. thank you! so i was put to slp and dunno wad happen through out the surgery. when i wake up. i was experiencing slow heart beat ! high blood pressure! was damn xin ku la! hahahas but when i wake up.gladys jun en si jie and anna was there already waiting for me. i guess i muz be very fortunate le? HAHA.okok bahs they really gave mi a lot of supports=) and the CO teachers and peers come too. thanks ya! hahahas there's not really much to talk abt other than my leg is really in pain and i really couldn't move it and it really saddening that i cant walk again D= AND IT REALLY VERY PAIINNN


well well. hahaas since u talked abt me in your blog. den i shall talk about you too bahs alright
gladys chin yan ying !
know u since sec 1 during feb when we go dumun high concert ! still rmb ma? haha you r the first person i ever ask for number face to face you kno. be glad abt it bahs! hahaha you are right bahs. we had gone thru a lot a lot and it will be really insane to talk abt everything.
hahhaa ok let see. hmms out of four years, we had seven months that is more than just friends? lols! hahaas be it a wrong choice wrong decision different character or wad so ever. i am sure we both learn a lot from it bahs. but i guess it really affect us a lot bahs. hardly e same anymore right? hahahas.but i hope we still can be friends even when we go different way from now onward yea?

ok la to reply to your post. i dun think i am a good punching bag now. extremely weak now=( and thanks for coming ya? hahaha dun work too much la you. i think not very suitable for u lehs. muz takkaire ah okok.

thank you for all the memories u gave me. be it painful memories or happy memories. these are memeories that really make mi learn a lot of things. thanks a lot ya. for the last thing. if u see this, rmb the movie that we watch? the guardian. the one abt saving ppl from the sea? hahaha if u rmb it. go rmb the last part of the story bahs. and rmb that when ever u nid help. i will alway be there. if u ask for it. i promise i will be there

enough le bahs. hahas btw thank euu for waking at six plus for sms-ing mi ok. really help a lot =)) and the friendship band oso ehs! i love it. thanks yea?

i dunno how.sigh, just felt kinda off beat

i wish i knew. how i wish i could mend ur heart








euu once said that i make your star shine again but could i do it again

heeeeeeeha!

o well. i went out ytd, din go for FR bbq. i hope they enjoyed themselve?

cos i enjoyed myself=D

ok let see !

venue: marina Square
activity: movie ! stardust
overview: it was very nice! at least euu did enjoy it. i guess i also enjoy it. just that i cant stand guy wearing dress n start dancing around. LOL

venue: Thiong bahru plaze
activity: Dinner, jap ramen
overview: hahaha not bad ah at least euu eat more than half of it and finish the drink and the egg thingy( i dunno how to spell it). WOOHOO. i love the raman there=D. we talk talk a lot there rmb? talk more than we eat.hahahaa.it was fun n funny=)

overall ! i enjoyed myself and i hope euu do too


rmb ! it's you who make the day so memorable=) it not that i am easily contented la. but i am really happy. thank euu!

16/11/07 i wun forget

well well well. i had been kinda of unlucky)= and i shall tell u why

1st) I LOST MY WALLET =(, it my valentine day present this year and it contain a lot of important stuff ! eg. IC NET CARD. now i need to make all new one, i lost all my membership card oso =( wails plus some movie tickets that is soooooooooooooooooooo impt to me D=

2nd) I AM DAMN BROKE. and the first reason on top had make me even poorer? D+ i dun really dare to go out u know. adult bus fare is EX. eating outside is EX. i had decided i shall not go out unless it impt occasion such as going out with euu? hahahaas

3rd) i had been getting into awful quarrels =( ok let see. i wanna dye my hair with colours that can see tt is different from normal hair. tt guy told me. u have too mani white hair. i nid to use darker colour to cover it up. is it ok. i tell him just got colour come out i dun care tt much. end up no colour come out and he just said i had to tell u the truth the colour din come out AND START TALKING COCK. CHAO CHEE BYE so i had decided to dye my hair again when i got e money.ken say he wanna dye today i dunno i got e money anot if dye today. tml cant go out with her le=( let see how things go bahs.
OK also i had been quarreling with my family. be it the leg or the money-__________-

4rd) i am greatly worried abt CO but i dun think i am going back anymore. due to some reasons yea? i love you guys =)



i had realised that my life had a lot of problems!!
and i am extremely bored at home T_T


BUT BUT BUT
euu said tml maybe can go out.hehs. i am excited=)

seriously i am fucking bad mood now.

and this home is fucking making it worse.


damn it.

o well, since last night i got back the feeling of " i am just a bastard, i shld just die D="


OKOK O LVL IS GONNA BE OFFICIALLY OVER ON MONDAY ALTHOUGH I HAD ALREADY BEEN IN HOLIDAY MODE N GO OUT FOR THREE DAYS AND SPEND MORE THAN 200. I M STILL QUITE EXCITED=DD

ok, this news is for those that who care, but for those that felt wasted abt this, turn around and go bang a wall thanks. OK. let see. i went to see my doc abt my knee again on wed. and i heard good news and good news =). it been proven that my soft lost was less than 1cm which mean i do not need to do the cartiledge operation ! and a doctor name kenneth was willing to allow me to do a 2mm MRI scan AT NO COST, THANK A LOT. it really a burden off my shoulder, for once, i felt like i could play basketball again, for once, i think like i can walk like normal people again.thanks for those that cares=) i love you guys


i am sure i gonna miss secondary school life, my CO life and my schooling life. I HAD GOT INTO SO MANI MANI TROUBLES, but i learn a lot from it. i had wonderful experience in this school although i had super sad memories too. AHA. but it this place that let me know YOU EUU NI AND YOU. a bit lame-.-. oo i forget abt my erhu 13 juniors and my tu di =( we must meet up !



ok. tt tym i rmb somebody say i keep anyhow say ppl is my lao po. HAHA. ok today i shall give the my best lao po award to SHARYL KUA. LOL! cos she is alway so entertaining and brighten up my days ! solve problem for me during CO tym. and she is alway so cheerful ! hahahha and her lousy singing will make u go mad which kinda of sad la she onli can play instrument ! need me as her singer ! =D i rmb she say she dream of me throwing her into the dustbin. LOL kinda of funny. i will miss 2e5 i will miss her. she is gonna kill me if she see this =/


i decided to blog more often and from today onward. euu will mean you if euu kno wad it mean=)


a gal and a boi, each with a different background, different intelligence, different mindset, both from a failed relationship, both are good ppl ( LOL !)

can they be tgt?

o level is almost over le. really dunno how struggle without secondary school life. when during pre o lvl i was dread for holiday and now i dunno wad am i going to do during the holiday or wad there that is planned for me.i need somebody iszit you?


nah i am not asking


the feeling is nice


and wadever god there is. save me. i nid money T_T

tell me you are alright. please be alright.

be strong i am here.

why everything i do. doesn't make thing any better?''

why am i alway the one drench with tears.

why did you alway choose to ask the others althought i am better at that question

why no matter how hard i tried to impress.i failed. there seem not even a slight positive in you and everything.aiis

o lvl is less than one week time. and i know if i dun have you. i will fail it.

i know the emo and retarded me dun meet e marking of mature

hais=(

the day i die. tell mi u dun regret loving me

yesterdy went to watch movie with my two little erhu juniors. watch the rat show. kinda funny but had fun thru. hahhahas. hard not to had fun wif ppl like kylie around u know ya. three cheers for kylie !


i swear. if one day i died. ur tears will revive me.

died while waiting


cried while walking

thanks sister for ur letter. it was great :) i wun forget the memories yea!


give me the chance to be wild again. i will love to be=D.

BUT I M JUST TOO EASY AFFECTED.sorries for the disappointment.
how mani people had came talking to me.
but sadly. i gotta let them down.
sorries.


i ruined my life.its not ur fault gal.its love.

got back chinese o levels result today. a B3

kinda disappointed with it.really.

even if we dun show anything. it doesn't mean we dun feel anything

loves to wei si and shi hui. grats to u shi hui ya. it muz have been a long tym since u win mi in chinese =/. wei si jia you in in N lvl okays! after that we can go out n haf fun again=D.

grats to gal for her A1. happy for u ya.

i love u too much le.

i will rather end mine than see u so fed up wif me.


wo hao bu gan xin

even if i tried to bluff myself

even if it true n i m wrong

even if it true n i m right


even if i din say anything abt it.. everybody ard u is saying it

siickkss

din went to sch.slp rather a lot.

ytd took 28 home from school. saw macus n HKH. aha. den remembers teacher day is coming le.almost tym to go back tnps le bahs.


i am living too much on the past.saveeeeee mee!

today was so piss off after recess.

it's not the first tym liao. it been so many bloodly tym that YOU had caused so much unhappyness for me.

dun did mi in thanks.

i totally take it down today cos she wun like it.

SO WTH IS WRONG WIF U

i never think that i would had remove u from one of my most impt group contact.

BUT SERIOUSLY U PISS MI OFF.

AND UR ATTITUDE FUCKING SUCKS. BIG TYM


to think that u had changed so much since we r close in sec twos or maybe three

zz.

i never gan u in the face before.becos i treasure the memories we once shared as closed frenz.

dun force me

and i mean it

i feel like running around playing soccer again.but i no longer had the heart to do that.

i feel like studying and scoring As again.but i no longer had the heart to do that.


aha.i sound like just any silly fool right.yea right i am.

wo bu xiang zhe yang.
que sheng mo yue zuo bu liao.

ni kai xin jiu hao bahs okay?
just wanna be by ur side.pei ze ni ya.
i m fine with anything.


the numbers of thoughts that go thru my mind whenever i m walking down the road alone.the conclusion was.woaini.and nth gonna change that yea.waha

sum frenz are just not meant to be frenz.freaks

All you could say was sorries
All i could do is nothing

how sad it sound uh huh.

yesterday i was talking to wei si. and she told me perhap god is playing on us.a cruel joke. she told me maybe it's tym to let go. and tym will heal. and one year down the road i will realise how foolish i once was. i answer her.so wad if my mouth say i dun love her anymore, my heart still do. my soul still do.for each tym i walk down the road wif the rain dropping on me.my heart freeze n my tears roll. ya and also she ask mi abt god.asking if i believe in it. i said i believe that there is jesus but i dun like him. and also i said if he is really true i m a gonner.she ask mi why.and i say cos i alway gan him.LOL.


ya. and yesterday was the combi SYF celebration for our awesome archievement.HAHA.i will say it was veri enjoyable.although I GOT TO DO LOT OF STUFF !!!. chairs table rock.omg.till now my shoulder still feel the pain after being so strain out.hahahas.my juniors was quite angry wif the choir people ytd.but hey it's okaay ya!

hahahas. and i did not go for the mock exam ytd! MDM YUE EXCUSE ME FROM IT =D.hahahahas.and i went to play block catching wif those few devils! sally ivy chin yi freddy n ning zheng.waha.we onli play 1 hrs plus a bit. hahahaas.but it was quite kinda of fun. but we was too easily to get caught.cos we think hiding is too boring n decided to move ard so that the catcher can see us n chase us.HAHA.

hmmms. co camp over le. i consider graduate from CO le bahs. definitely going to miss it. i grew with it in my sec sch life. it had changed mi a lot n teaches mi a lot. Seeing my juniors performing at next year march concert is definitely my greatest wish n i am looking forward for it yea=D.

well.co camp happen sooooooo mani things! hahahas. but there four people who really brighten my day.thanks a lot !


anyway ytd midnight ivy freddy n ning zheng came over to my house to talk talk till 2+.hahahas so fun n funny. my tu di not around ehs ! U MUZ CHEER UP EHS GAL. shi fu by ur side =)

I SIMPLY HATE NOT KNOWING THE TRUTH.

WORSE KNOWING THE WRONG THINGS.


ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

I wun say stuff like why did u come at the first place when u kno u are going to leave.No i won't.nobody expected this ending.

Sorries but i wun n cant forget the memories of those period of tym.

yes how i missed the closed friendship we had.the days that we sms whole day long n going out having fun. u willing to go back?

no matter how upset i am.if u indeed find a better guy. i will of course give my blessing.
i too believe u would give mi ur blessing when i found a better gal. but will we then be truely best friend? u rmb wad u told me last summer?

i had failed everything in this relationship.

one month after our break up.i swear infront of my mum. a swear that i doubt i will break it.

yesterday.mi rb.ken.vincy went suntec the PC FAIR.n we brough quite a lot of things.hahahas.it was lyk so crowded la! with mani hot gals around n cheap stuff to buy.it was a worthwhile trip=D

and also yesterday.i had a talk over the fone wif my old pal bestie.din know u so cham ehs! got things come find me kay! get over it bahs.he's not worth it.serious.all e best ah!

i dunno wad u wanna mi to do.i dunno wad u treat me as.
i no longer part in ur life.the words ching kiat no longer in ur dictionary
my dreams.my nightmare.
both make mi cried when i wake up.
my dreams.i cried becourse it no longer will happen
my nightmare.i cried becourse it haunting me.
i never wanna let go
i never regret
but wad kinda of state am i in now.
i dunno
i am here but oso not here.

firstly.although i dun think u will ever has a chance to see this.but still i will say this :
" father "! takkaire la.nb today went to see u. u oso nvr talk much.look so shag-.- cheer up n get well soon =D

Secondly.this is serious.wan kp.kp mi for all u wan.for all i care.dun fucking drag her in. i love her.that's my prob.and wad affect her is my prob.

thirdly.i had a stupid dream last night.i dreamt of making a frenz.then the friend's sister look lyk gladys and i actually wanted to jio that gal.wth.

i m not letting go the love we had.
but yes.i am hurt.

The last 50m is a lonely road. It doesn’t matter how you start, it matter how you end it.
hohoho.i had heard this sentence a lot of tym before my chinese o lvl.n it really work that way.i really feel so lonely on the night before the o lvl chinese.i doubt many could understand how i feel.cos it was plus i was thinking abt her.worried for her too.yea.n it was so right.cos i nvr study chinese thru out my secondary sch life =(.but the last few days was the impt ones.so my juniors.stop studying xD

well.i think i failed my paper 1 de formal writing.but the others was quite okay and i really wanna get my A2 min.pray hard for me peoples.

well.i had been serious upset for so long.and i dun think anything is working.plus come to think of it.i dun really haf much true friends.she told me it was because i was not true to people.i dunno why.but seriously.to my certain frenz.i was really true to them.but wad come back in the end.

today went to vivo city after school to collect back my addidas watch=D. yeah.finally got it back after so long. Had a talk at there with my buddy.sum abt the past.sum abt the present.and sum abt the future.it make mi think quite a bit.well.i felt a changed person.

hmmms. mid year. i didn't do veri well. and was veri disappointed with myself. esp my e math paper two. never in the hell would i expect to do so badly with my best subject.well.gotta blame no one except myself thru. a math and chem.i dunno wad to do abt it.i cant even get started on a math. i read my chem textbook a few tym in those few weeks before exam trying to catch up but still in no vaild use.aiis

well.i in quite a lost nowadays.having no ideals of what to do.abt u.i really dunno wad to do abt it or say abt it.this afternoon u din reply mi.again.
was kinda of worried tt day when heard abt u being upset over ur result.but knowing that u had gone out the play during the weekend and seeing u laughing and smilling today.i think u r ok le bahs? well takkaire of ur throat gal.it been a long tym le larhs.dun keep eat the fried jap food le kay!


o ya.maybe u will will say that i am being childish or wad.
but i just wanna say this bahs.
Dun be too close with that gal.
nvr in my life had i ever hate a gal before.
cos she is seriously not a good person.
so long.
takkaire.

ahhhhhhh i cant believe how ppl can be as crazy as that de lehs.cant they use their brain n think?
even the own ppl oso dun lyk the way u all do.stop n think abt it hao ma? think abt why other SO MANI ppl dun lyk u all. WHY WHY WHY.COS U ALL ARE DAMN WROING !
not all thing is link to him larhs pls larhs k
everyman for his own
everyvictory came with a price
we fought for it
he did nths


if somebody got cancer, nvr see doc, pray for him and get well, pls come tell me abt it
he will help those that come to him? WAD ABT THOSE THAT DUN? LEFT THEM TO DIE? I ASK U. IF U SAW A GUY KANNA BANG DOWN BY A CAR.BUT HE WUN ALLOW U TO HELP.WAD WILL U DO? NOTHING? yes nothing is wad he do =D

wees, today went 900+ there play bball n soccer

waha.so fun.no troubles.i could do wadever i wan.

i wanna perform.iwannafly.let mi shine

soccer lost 5-4 sia ! I score two goals kays! waha.i so long nvr play le.still got a bit of magic in me.wees

basketball
OMG MY STARTING WAS DAMN JIA LAT LOL ! i think is jun qun fault.fking give mi a rubber ball to play.WAHA when the leather ball come.i started to play as usual.

we vs other sch team chong cheng high or sumthing lykdat.
lost 21-19
nb.stupid jun jie-.-.scare of lay up.wa biang ! could haf won
but i enjoy myself ! so funny.i manage to score quite a lot kay !


i wish to play bball n soccer.i wanna be a winner-.- today lost but quite happy =))
IT'S OK I WILL DO BETTER


hais.my parent had been veri worried abt me after i broke up
but seriously i dunno wad to do either.

it been so long since i ever posted in my blog
it has been a long journey and i dunno should i continue wif it
i told myself to control myself, to control my tears.
had i been a fucktard in the class disturbing the rest
had i been a ah beng scolding other ppl
u had stay by my side for a long tym.in sum impt crisis.i thanks you for loving me staying by myside urging me on.For the so many things that we planned to do together.Our first year celebration.After "o" lvl.
i dunno wad to do so that i could benefit u more.i scare the more i do.the more wrong i get.wo zhen de bu zhi dao yin gao zhen mo zhuo le.
how mani ppl had came questioning abt my decision last tym.how mani ppl had criticise us.but i hold on firm to my own view.cos it our relationship and i dun think any others idiots shld come influence u or mi de decision

GOLD WITH HONOUR

a effort put by all CO-PPL.
is their heart,soul,blood,tears and sweat
THEY ARE THE PEOPLE THAT DESERVE THE HONOUR
they did it for the school, for themselve, for the teachers, for the seniors.

IF WE HAD TO PRAISE. WE SHALL PRAISE THE PEOPLE
IF WE HAD TO BELIEVE. WE SHALL BELIEVE IN OURSELVE.COS IF U DUN BELIEVE IN YOURSELF.NOBODY WOULD.

you guys are obsessed with the RIGHT thing in the WRONG way

040407.i was so happy for them.so proud of them.the feeling was so nice.gold with honour.we had wish for it.and now we get it.you guys=). the hard work had paid off.it was a veri happy day.everybody was celebrating it.we cant really control ourselve didn't we?=D
we had move on to a greater height
we did it
SYF 2007 no 57 is one of the best
n0 57.pasir ris secondary school,GOLD. WITH HONOUR
i swear i will never forget that day.i swear

believe in yourself.has the faith.
cos CO will always has these two in you and we will nvr give u up

maybe my journey with this wonderful ( a CCA that i dun consider as a CCA) i dunno how to said it
cos it simply too wonderful
but maybe it tym that it end

LALALA SYF COMING FOR PRSS CO N WE ARE GETTING GOLD WITH HONOUR =D
For the third tym we are going to SYF
For the first tym we are going to get gold with honour
AND I M PRETTY EXCITED ABT IT =D

But i m getting tired out by the practises =(
wanna slp T_T

AHA.today i saw SOMEBODY online =D GLHF GAL

i saw a chio bu on bus home after sending darling home !!
she really quite chio ! but sadly she totally dun haf any figure.*pukes* no figure plus good face dun match.lalalalas

AND
AND
AND
I LOVE MY DARLING MUAHAHAHA

back from co camp =D. tired.sick.sleepy.but apart from all these.i really learn a lot of things.patient.toleration n many mores. the first day was quite alright till the ball game n nitewalk. though sumtym i wonders why the juniors are so tired out by the previous games before the ball games.so maybe the juniors muz train their body up or i think u guys will fall sick easily.the nightwalk was a failure.things go out of hands.too mani different instruction was given.internal quarrel happened among the sec 4s.but pleased to say tt on the next day.everybody wake up wif a fresh new mind n put in their effort for the camp for btoh the members n the leaders. i was pretty worried when the weather start to change.n the clouds look dark.a quick meeting between me n the teachers happened.n we changed n cancel out sum part of the amazing race.although onli two grp manage to complete the whole race.but i think tt the lesson learn from the amazing race is much more impt. the spirits that i had seem from the members during the amazing race was the best reward i had recieve from this camp. sadly to say.maybe the leaders had been tired out by the first day.they didn't perform up to my expectation.


To all day one leaders: u guys did it.all of u reached my min expectation.but seriously u guys are too playful.even during the camp.u guys keep play among urself.it's tym for u all to calm down n settle down for the future shall depend on u all. i had told a few of u.this test will be a experiment for u all. it was so difficult for me to choose the 7 of u to become the camp group leaders.To Sally, u are a bright gal.do wad's correct.it is time for u to put down ur heart n use ur brain to do wad's right n wad's wrong as it is tym for u to put down ur ego.u had passed my test.n i m veri please wif u.To Ning Zheng and Freddy: tsk tsk.u guys had played so much during this camp that sumtime it really go overboard.dun be too playful n focus on the more impt stuff.but i had to said the two of u had done a good job n u all really bring the spirit out of ur group members n i believe they will haf great respect for the two of u =D


i had truely learn a lot from this camp. thinking of the days in my CO life.my juniors.my erhu=D.my teachers. The sad feeling arise in my heart.hais

well.i dunno if i had done e right thing ytd.maybe it had make things worsen.but at the same time i saw the change of attitude in some.the small portion of the ppl tt make the attempt to change for the benifit of ur batch, i truely thanks you for that. In return for the small portion of the ppl, i promised i will not stop being there for u guys, whenever u all need help.i will be there.i promised. One more month plus, we would have step down, a brand new CO will then be created as i knew there will be a major change down to it. i will pray hard for u guys. For those tt had worsen their thoughts abt CO because of me.i hereby say sorries to u guys, but there is no need to hate CO becos of me, cos in less than one month i would have gone from CO forever otherthen the few that need me, i will be there for them. For the others, enjoy urselve in CO.u guys can do it.trust urself, perform well, dun let others look down on u, u guys will be the stars that will shine. good luck guys


special thanks to : dominic, hey i would nvr forget the sms that u sent me when i lost the chairman position.thanks a lot=D ( i juz happen to rmb this =X )

ning zheng : woah.dude.u are a diamond that need to be refined. make sure u shine out among the others!

Vivien : unleash ur powers, mould the members, i haf faith in u as much as u had in god.For chirst do it and for me oso la ok?=D



i dun think ppl would actually think tt i will think abt CO n blog abt CO.but ytd i was talking to sharyl that crazy gal abt CO stuff, which end up make me crazy abt CO.woah.


but it really was pretty disheartening to see some things happening n some words said by the others.hais

AHLELELELE !


UPSET=(


NOT HAPPY!!!



URGHHHH

ytd me n robert was invited to si jie house for steamboat * quite a surprise*.hahas.it was sort of yummy.and we get to enjoy the Kane movie lehs!.see no evil !.hahahs.so gore la-.-.keep take out ppl eye dunno for wad.lols.tt kane gone crazy over jesus.LOL.madness.n robert came to my hse to gamble.n actually i lost 50 plus to him.but he was nice enough to cont bet n lost the money back to me =D.wees.


whole weeks of common tests.stressed=(
in debt.haisD=


chingkiat is an unhappy boy=(.sad

wad i can say is. WAKE UP FROM UR DAMN BLOODLY DREAM. IT'S 2007.he's dead for long.n stop influencing others.u bitch n bastard.u really appear disgusting now.zz


zz.above statement is against a group of emotionally weak fuck as quoted from RBG,chairman of FOC.


ok.tml is CNY.n i m not totally happy at all.z.i wan a carefree life.a life tt controled by me n myself.z.i hate this.hate it.
ok wishlist: darling to be happy =D
good result ! =X
money money?=/
FOC to be successful=)

today tot sumbody will get caned.n i tot is mi.wees.but nobody got caned.so i dunno i shld be happy or not =/ forget it.i already put that matter aside.last friday saw the O lvl result.make mi feel lyk studying.but dun think i could do veri well lehs-.-.stupid a math.STUDY HOW HARD OSO FAIL ONE LEHS. stupid chem.TOO MANY THINGS TO MEMORIES LIAO LEHS.n it's complicated.btw i m so gonna get distinction for e math n physic.dunno can anot la.now is a B3/A2 standard.tym to work hard dude!


tml CO sec 1s coming.i m sooooooooooo excited.wees!


WEd is valentine day.god bless me


chinese new years coming liao.it mean more money.woots


$$$$ i nid $$

sing the ahlelele song.dance the pcb dance.make the whole world shag


ahh.today went to play bball.long tym nvr play as a team le la.seriously.wei quan i miss u =(.i got scolded a lot of tym today.DUE to three reason.1st.wei quan was not here.so they targeted mi=(.2nd ivan din play much.3rd.i play lyk shit.AHH.couldn't really play well.rawrs.i will perform well next tym =(

tym to play bball again.n put the bad stuff behind.

three cheers for me

wails =( i admit tt i m fat..crys!!. i cant even run during my pe.i cant even play soccer. I CANT SCORE.well i did.at least one goal=X.i m a loser to myself T_T. I HAF TURN INTO A BIG FAT PIG.OMFG.I SWEAR I GOING TO EXERCISE.ROAR.I NOT FEI FEI. I NOT FEI ZHU.N SERIOUS.I CFM NOT FEI LUO.FEI LUO IS 70KG .I 67 onli ok=X.crycrycrycry.i m a fatty =(

just wanna say to you. i nvr gave up hope on our relationship.really nvr.u knew it.how much would i listen to u. had i not give in to u? u always say tt i alway say i dunno wad i had done wrong.i really dunno wad i had done wrong.cant be becos a stupid teacher?.everytym u get angry wif mi.i always think hard of wad i had done.i will be at a lost.in fear of losing u.

now..i dunno wad things had came to..maybe it's really gone n over.i dunno.i wanna continue it.really.woaini.i will be there for u.really.i love u.i will do my upmost to u.i promise nvr left u alone walking down e road


darling woaini.
may the memories be revived