i am sorry i lied
但这一切对你比较好吧
再见了好朋友



happy x mas people

give me some great struggle of life and death
remind me the pain of those days



and aww that seriously hurts.

hardly had any post nowaday
rarely had the mood either.
not in the best of mood recently either.

unwanted things flying floating on my brain,sigh
been back to reading harry potter, cool uh

and and i shld be working on the next SITEX it fair at expo next week !
would be saving up for some money to go out with darling on friday den
hope to earn some quick cash from SITEX thru.z
exams are coming real soon.

true friends,
where are you?

hellooooooooooooooooooooooooo god !
where are you ! (:

trust me!
i will turn it upright
and shove it up your candy A$$ !

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
How could you forget about me
You got me feeling crazy
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

finally it's friday
been working from monday till today
finally got some off days tml and sunday
gonna fucking relax myself and play i tell u!( so gonna meet jy darling)
FUCKING TIRED
hais
bth!
today get to know some stuff
really spoilt my mood for the whole day D;



" all his friends smoke, cannot expect he dun smoke right?!"
this sentence gonna fucking haunt me for life

THREE
THREE FUCKING IMPT PPL IN MY LIFE TOLD ME THIS
NOT TOTATLY THE SAME
BUT SAME MEANING
FUCKING FUCK IT !

and amazingly
everytime
i am so disappointed that i dunno what to say
or rather i think i have no right to say about this

went to celebrate JED BLACKY birthday ytd
ate at katong. was suppose to sang there but it was fully book!
so ya we went over to ECP to drink
got a little overboard while playing and drinking
and i end up dead drunk-.-
quite a few things happen when we drunk and high
it kinda of high, xin ku, depress yet a bit of vent out stress and happy feeling
i dunno
to someone out there, i cant really remember what exactly i had said to you, but i guess what i said to you is what i really wanna say to u all this while
but the after effect is definitly one hell shit
but thanks to darling that came over my house and make breakfast and lunch for me (:
make me go slp and wake up for meals.
hehs!
<33>

Do you believe in love?

: Yes i do.

although it perhaps cause the most damage to my life in this 17 years other than breaking my legs.
It's bitter sweet, up and down !
but i guess it caused the excitment and i guess i love it !
gotta learn how to cherish and how to forget!
woohoo
wow !
looking at the number of times i hurt gals
and the number of gals of that hurt me !
u guys gotta be careful about love!
and think twice about loving me ):[
cos i guess i will think thrice about loving u (:

wahaha !
went to gym this morning
appearently my standard drop quite a bit. dunno is becos of wad also !
met up with jia yan n co at 243!
went to TM !
caught a movie !! make it happen <3
haha!
and i finally persuaded jia yan dearest to get me a xiao lao po!

been doing nothing sia!
i cant find a job ):[
how sial!
i nid a job!!!!

-.- been staying at home n slacking tampines past few days
and doing housework.
roars
i really felt quite sian
i tihnk i nid a spark of excitment =X

i feel so damn fuck !
nobody tagging my tagboard):
everybody is isolating me! wails!
these few days i had came to know so so so many things
i am glad that i still can cope with it
althought i must admit i struggle damn a lot to acknowledge sumthing and even to give advice about it.
but o well
i had given up on my life =/
so i guess i just had to get the best with it. haish

and to ROBERT GAO ZHENG HUI
whr e fuck have u been?!
STOP GOING TO C***** LA U MOTHER LAO CHEE BYE
if u become C****tian, i gonna ripe ur balls off

been quite long since i ever blog, one week i guess? pretty much happen bahs.
ok let's see
monday. 010908
ate breakfast with xiaomei, dear came over to my house. we caught clone wars in the afternoon
although i wanted to shag alone at home, xiao mei didnt allow and dear was there for me.
i stayed over at dear house for dinner with her parent.
tuesday 020908
ate lunch with kok peng, ning zheng and ding wei at 201 there
went over to see CO at tecc. cabell cut her hair and nz tio gan cos nvr go on stage LOL. he quite ke lian. went over to CS to catch WALL.E with dear
wednesday030908
ate lunch at jack place with dear and my bro
head-ed over to dear class BBQ
rain-ed quite heavily
xiu qi and co came over to find me
i guess we sort of disturbed till their BBQ. pai seis luh alright.
ton-ed over at 800+. damn tired pls
it was quite funny thru.

thursday 040908
went back home to sleep at 7+
all e way till 1+
prepared and get ready to go for cruise
the cruise was pretty boring i guess
i will go again with my owns friend when i am 18 and above i guess
boring but quite a pleasant experience

lazy to update already. nothing much happen yesterday i guess came back from crusie , go sengkang see those cuties and came down to tamp to wait for dear to finish her lesson.

anyway
i guess i sort of know what happen.
but i dunno if i am right.
you alway end up loving the wrong guy i perssume?
and i believe u never had the intention to hai dao others
everything will be ok i guess
come tell me clearly wad happen luh alright-.-

but to that particular guy
oie chee bye dun let me know what really happen.
or u gonna really fucking get it from me

在我眼里你永远最美
连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
你所谓的幸福我想给
以为手不放开就是痴心绝对
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
还是真心死了彼此不信任了

i so wannnaaaa close my eye and scream it all out ):






心里闷闷的
好辛苦

waited for linjiayan to finish her school at 243 today
had lunch at pasta mania
and went to shopping awhile~
sent her to interchange
and i am off to 800+

met up with jun en and gladys
they brought me a belated cake( which is really late)
and yeayea
we went to eat and off to study
get chased out of mac ): they say no study! roars
went over to TP to study
study till 8+ can !
went back to mac and eat
and off to home swweeeet home(:

and and and gladys give me a letter la hor !
hahaha gal ah, you shld know better that i cant possible blog about everything in my blog cos everybody is like reading it can ! but everything u can just come and talk to me about it larhs, i will share with you de ! (;
and you shld also know that i had put in a certain measure so that we can remain as friend recently right?
i guess i am pretty alright, just that i am really really struggling with my poly subjects=/
anyway i will be trying to quit something that i had once broken my promise to u ( bu fan pian to write it all out arhs ) ya, and it will on a quite a significant date that is coming around, dunno if you still rmb it anot thru =/
anyway, i am alway really worried about you-.-
can u like find a way to update ur life for me although it will make me kind of shag=X
i will sure try to update more and let u know about me,wahaha but it will be better if u could just come talk to me over a lunch or sumthing larhs !
takkaire yeahs <33 and u better do!

yesterday had my last CSA test
pretty screwed up.LOL. think need retake alr

went to TM after that.
met up with germaine lili wern ching and lin jia yan(:
ate at xiao bei
and TM mac also i think>_>

and we catched the journey to the center of the earth
and a lot of funny things happen.
jia yan and lili go their own way
germaine and me go our own way
so jia yan and lili sat at the most left of the cinema
and me and germaine sat at the most right of the cinema
but in the end we change back luhs-.-
cos later somebody kai bu qi wan xiao hor ! LOL
but the stupid joke continue even after the movie
and jia yan is pretty du lan about it i think
LOL
for me
i think it pretty funny luh!
but a bit overboard i think !
sorry luh !

last night had a quite a pleasant yet upsetting dream
dreamt of xiao mei
asked her how was her MT Os
in the dream she told me it was A1 ( i seriously hope she really get A1 in real life thru )
we he hao during the dream
but.. ya. nvm...


i realise i had been very selfish
and very silly too.
when everything is so so over, i realise the person that couldnt get it all right is none other than myself. Just when everything is over, it already too late to say sorry, sorry that i couldnt see thing clearer in the first place.


it was i who first guide you along your life
can it be your turn now?

feel kinda of sucky due to reading sumthing this morning=/


maybe it just because of the miscommunication we had that i lost the trust in you. Promise me that you will be alright and will take good care of yourself hao ma?

如果要走, 请你记得我
如果难过,请你忘了我

was reading up something kinda of " make me think throught a lot of thing" de thing.
so ya i think-ed a lot =/

as i graduated from pasir ris secondary and came to TP, i must say that my life is pretty exciting compare to some other norms

as people come in and out of my life, often they come in as this piece and go out in a different shape, sumtime i wonder iszit me that had caused this negative effects into them as i myself really is not a very good role model to anybody.

of cos, often i would just choose to push away all blame and led my lazy life.
but just some time god would wanna make you wake up and pin point the blame directly at your face than u will realise how stupid you had been.

practising make perfect, so so correct
PRSS CO had never been that great, but still haven come to fail to take at least a gold medal so far in SYF, cos they had beeen so hardworking in practising.
if you repeat the same thing for more than 100 time and u still get it wrong
then you just have to figure out what really happening.

but having doing for two or three time, and you feel like you had done a lot and you wont do wrong if the same stare blankly at you again, well, things alway happen the other way and you get so nervious cos you like forget one step, and OMG you forget two step and you start sweating all over. this sound like what i had been doing in my life thru

and for people that had really know me, they would had know that i am very against sumthing in particular.
not that i just can't their way of doing things
but to see friends turning into some freaks
it really heartbreaking.
i hate to see people changing
really hate so.
wad's more the one you loved?

is it that people had changed
or is it just you dont understand them in the first place?


even things like make up, piercing or even being on time.
if small things like these you can't make it
you think you can make it to the big thing?

i wont doubt you
unless you gave me the chance to (:

so tell me,
should i be disappointed, upset or angry?

yesterday was national day!

and i stayed home the whole day facing the com ):

didnt really have money to go out anyway=/

<<>

anyway to somebody out there, i did hope u could still turn to me with your trouble yea? i got some words to tell you yea? be careful with the things in your surrounding ya, dun get hurt (:

080808(:
wad a wonderful day
the start of a war):
shi qing birthday !
happy birthday to you ya (: roar happily k!
went out with gladys chin too =D

dine at jack place
drink and eat and talk
keep walk up and down of CS and TM
drank a cup of forget love with her =/
talked quite a abit
i am so glad that you are still so so fine (:

060808(:
my seventeen birthday!
woke up in the morning and rushed to school for my OB presentation ):
i dont know why but the ob teacher talked to me with quite a few stuff
and it really like motivate me can?!
omgomg =X
ob presentation was pretty alright i think, shld be can pass bahs !

went over to TM to meet with erhu sec 1 06
they gave me two shirts ! love it (:
went over to fish n co for lunch with them !
they make the ppl there sing the fish n co birthday song
DAMN STUPID PLEASE !
i had to wear a clown hat, stand on a chair, hold a ( i dunno what it calll )
but it was quite cool i think (:
and they brought me a tom and jerry cake !
wakaka(:

after that met up with robert
sit at starbuck for two hours i think =/
waited for xiu qi, qiao feng, kenneth to come over
and we went to CS de san zhong liang jin de restaurant to eat
was very very very fun thru (:

jie jie brough me a ice cream cake !
waha ! thank you yeahs (:

i really sort of enjoy myself u know u know !

was kinda happy at comm skill lesson today cos it was the first time teacher praise me in poly life LOL !
happen kinda alot of stuff today
pretty sad ):

金鱼
这世界的海洋很宽大
你一定能找到你的最好的男友
是我亏欠了你
真的好对不起
但狮子的承诺
一定会做到
有什么事, 我必定会保护你的
有什么事, 你必定能来找我
海洋那么大
你一定要萧洒的游
答应我
你一定能活的更好
狮子和鱼相爱可能是一场意外
但对我而言
也是个美好的回忆
谢谢你

如果你们是我
你们会做出什么决定呢?
你们有没有站在我的立场想想呢?

也知道没有你的日子可能会有多么煎熬
但为了你好
可能这是最好的决定了


绕了这么一大圈
我也可能就这样回去了



thanks jia yan for the lovely ah kiat cap (:
thanks shi qing for the cute little pig that look like bear piggy bank, i will save a lot of money de ok!
caught money not enough 2 yesterday with jia yan.
was really a nice show thru

went to home coming dinner
pretty alright other than it was quite hot n boring
=/

and i making no head nor tail with econs project ! fark it !


i am having a sad birthday this year ):

i just wanna let you know
everything i do
i put in my heart and soul

just so u know
this feeling is taking control

i may be gone forever
but these memories is staying for life
as it gonna get buried

R.I.P

SIGHZXZXZX, some people just don't have the balls to talk to people face to face D; OOOO i forget that she is a gal, no wonder she is ball-less, no guts shit.
hey yo ! buay song lai, say it out yo ! dun bottle up everything than later u need to do all sort of pumping to pump out ur anger yo! anyway pumping dun suit you seriously, i swear i gonna fucking puke if i ever gonna see you pump, so please dont pump alright ? D:
and gals, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE shave ur armpit hair, ok fine, even if u are lazy to, dun wear sleeve-less when u didnt shave can? PLEASE IT FUCKING DISGUSTING ! oh my fuck!
and dont role play olay? dun wear one like reporter shit and try to act one mother fucker, oh man D: it dont look nice really, it show how a shit you are (:
and oh oh oh, did i mention that u love to be one leader but but this world dun need leader to lead bitches, i am sure they are bitch enough to be independent so ya, so i dun think those of your kinds need a leader like you. a FUCK BITCH dun lead dude, they ka kui kui, tan dua lui !

u broke my defination of love
and i no longer know what's love anymore
pardon me



just because i was once the best of the best
i no longer able to let go of my past

didnt really have much to say.

i really need quite a bit of luck to handle with my poly work. fuck it.

mood been pretty bad as well

pretty much things happening

pretty confusing and dramatic

and i kinda of feel sick with sore throat, cough and block nose.

and i injured my right shoulder again ( WAD DE FARK MAN )




and today i truely see the wizards of street basketball
amazed +D

My life is pretty much of a screwed up now, now that I could no longer blame anybody other than myself. Felt so much of a loser. Zzz. I smashed my heart, look for the long lost memories through the pieces of my heart, and review it and told myself, : it’s all just none other than lies. Everything fit in too nicely that I could no longer run away from it. Yet I hate myself for telling myself that all of these is so so true. Why? I asked myself, I couldn’t found any answer.

Things that happen like a decade ago came back haunting me, it sucks BIG TIME.


And and AND, yeo ching kiat’s bank financial bank never seem to be coming back track, been downsloping since dunno when. ROAR! );<


Didn’t have the mood to go basketball training, hell it.
My mood is just so fucking bad ):



Maybe I just wanna end everything here and now.
Cos I no longer wish to hurt anybody anymore.
Now that I am in such confusing state, dun ask me about R.S thingy.
Since things had not started/comeback, let just leave thing as it is now.
我恨我自己,不会去爱,也不懂的去爱,更不敢去爱
不用愿谅我,就这样忘了我吧

有时,就是爱你, 所以不想伤害你
就算你愿意,我也不会原谅我自己

HAIYA !
anyway si jie, if today wad you said is true
i really dont know what to do ):
my memories will be soo sooo sooo broken T.T


and Hui min,
dun so sad le larhs, cheer up ok!
如果,也许,所以 =D
world will be peace if thing can be restart la hor!

today was feeling quite kinda of stupid yet refresh after talking to somebody in particular.

what u said really really do shake me.
is it quite true?
am i still me
or had i lost me to forever

will i be able to command the crowd again

cant really bear to think about it.

anyway i see some light for B.A today(:

really thanks si jie and hui min for trying to teach me
i still dont know if i could pass still.
aha. thanks(:


i alway wish to go back to the past
but i know i cant
so i just gotta be strong !


i really going into mia soon
take it as it for my studies bahs (: takkaires !

you were the first person that had made something for me to drink out of worry that i will not take care of myself, i still remember u rushing over to my house area to pass me the drink, make sure i had my lunch, make sure that i had fallen aslp soundly on my bed then u left on ur own.

the first person i had asked for stead, the person that i trust to bring me out of my terrible past.even before we are together, i knew i can depend on you to take good care of me (:

thinking of lame jokes, doing retarded action just to get me to smile whenever i am down/pissed or angry, you never failed to be by myside to pei me go through my problems that i had face in these period of time that we are together.

i had never doubted your love to me.
i am always lousy at making choices when it come to relationship.
i never wanted to hurt u sooo soooo deeeep really.
sicne the beginning, i really really love you so much so much
you had been too good to me, really, thank you (:

it not because i am afraid that i had not enough space for myself that why i dont wanna patch
it not because of the temper and attitude u flare at me when you are in a bad mood

it because of me ME me
i had let you down
i am soo soo sorrrrry


now that my heart is being divided.
i felt so lost
i dunno where to go either.
i am sooo sooo lost
that i dont even know if i am doing the right thing
i am sooo sooo sorrry
i dont know if i would regret
but i know
i never wanted to hurt ANYBODY

you shouldnt wait for me.

misses

been kinda of long since i blog.
been quite happening
zz

somehow i hope i dont make the wrong decision on thursday, take it as i let you down. sorry yeahs? u gotta be better without me. i hope u can do it and dun do silly thing and ruin ur own life ya? if u do nid help, i am sure most willing to give a helping hand ok!


有些事, 就算是一天的恋爱, 我也不会后悔



now tat my heart is in pieces
i dun wish to make any decision so soon
just in case i gonna do sum fuck up thing again
z

been such a long time since i blog ):
u guys must be missing me i know ( HAHA!)
today was pretty alright
was on a positive notes cos i passed my econs paper ! LOL!
i was like super duber happy laaaaa!
dunno why
i will buck up on my study i swear!

dont really have any thing happening these few days

went over to teck wee chalet on sunday n stay over
watch euro cup final there
played bowling( i top player LOL )
ate at superdog ( will never go dere again sia i tell u )
and ah tech drink a drink that cost two thirty and it tiny LOL
and i learn to play a new card game call 55 ( i get first blood NB ! )


and o yeahs
lin jia yan darling top up her prepaid card le =D
finally can find her easily and she can find me more easier and dun need to wait for me for soooo long !


anyway had a talk with some SP people just now
yea i will give face alright(:

hohohohohoo
best news of the day!
CSA WAS CANCEL TODAY!!!!!!! LOL !
how great
ahlelele(:
went over to TM to watch dun miss with the zohan!
ate swesen ice cream(:
mint cookie crunchie was super nice luh!
ah lian! i super duber nice to u right ! (:
but today i realise u quite a cave-woman LOL
guess u gotta go out with people like me more often
to get a life yea!
LOL !
anyway
the movie was super NICE can !
damn funny luh!
was laughing like hell!
i enjoyed myself like durh!
1b13
at first i thought i really wont fit in nicely
that i will really give up making friend with any of them
sorry luh dey!
i know i am SO SO noisy
and VULGAR ):
but i guess we would had fun together yea!
wanting said tml might have manjong session. I AM LOOKING FORWARD MAN
i am so so so addicted with manjong gambling and soccer yea!
LOL



O YA FARK IT !
i just remember something
damn funny
was planning to sleep in the library during lunch break today
and end up
we overheard some damn stupid n funny thing
ok
at first
we heard a lot of " BOM ! BOM! BOM !" sound
den " ahhhh ahhhh AHHHHHHHH"
den girl voice " wahs ! so SMALL?"
den guy voice " WHAT! it FUCKING BIG CAN "
LOL I TELL U I LAUGH LIKE ONE CRAZY GUY CAN

Happen quite a number of stuff
but i could hardly remember any of them
greatly shaken by certain stuff
sigh

o well
anyways
TP SARKS
tmd-.-
weird structure bodo!
cannot learn anything one bodo!
farking sian nahs
yesterday went over to wanting house to play manjong!
woohoo
kinda of fun nahs.
maybe should organise more manjong outing(:


anyway
to someone out there
although i really wish to know whatever had happen
it's okays not telling me yea
i dun think i got any zhi ge to know anyway
but be strong and be alright okay!
everything will be fine de!
P.S if there is anything u need anybody to help, do come find me yea?



and to anybody out there
if it is you that huan tio her
hong gan la okay!

pretty much things happen nowadays.
never been updating for soooo long
sigh
upsetting yea!


我只是想开开心心的过生活
但是
为什么会这么难
为何
爱却牢牢把我给缠住
一颗心
会有几次爱情


i dont understand
and i dunno what to do
yes,i love u
but what could i do

yesterday
080608(:
our FIRST month =D
morning was rushing thru the pressie that i made for darling
then met up with darling at 1+
of cos she was late !
LOL
hahha!
den we went over to city hall there
marina square was full of ppl
so we went over to suntec to watch kungfu panda!
hahaha
we sat the director seat u know
paid quite a bit for it
but it was really comfortable la!
damn shuang =D
darling love it!
hahaha
den went to KBOX dinner at marina square
ahhaha
so fun =D
didnt know two ppl can be so fun at k box=/
but two ppl can do sumthing too*grin*
had a really lovely day with her
thank you so much!
LOVES(:

Finally, i finished failling all my poly subject):
AND ITS HOLIDAY
let enjoy it =D
went over to eat botak jones after exam on thursday
it was pretty okays bahs i guess=/
anyway
had fun and laughter after eating with them(:

yesterday went over to sentosa with 1B13!
woke up damn early can !
met up with some of them at pasir ris
and went over to habour front to met up with the rest
ate mac breakfast(:
and off we went to sentosa
oh man
sentosa like no difference from pasir ris park liao
WHEN DID IT BECOME SO DIRTY ?
roars
but still it was good to get into water for some fun
just that it was too salty=/
" ninja attack" was fun ! LOL
ah lian was drag into the water by xin yong and me
water captain ball was hell loads of fun (:
BUT I SUFFER FROM LEG CRAMP AFTER THAT
haahaa
after everything
went over to bathe
and we start drinking
" BO TA BO LAM PA "
kinda of fun.
playing "five,ten,fifteen" and card game
drank quite a bit.
went over to play luge
IT WAS A WASTE OF MONEY
lucky ying hui split at them
that was e bit of excitment
LOL
went over to vivo to have dinner
I WANTED TO HAVE CARL JR DE CAN ):
anyway
sorry ah lian ok!
we never get to go over n pei u D;
holiday must meet up and go out ok!
anyway
i go off damn early
to meet vanessa n CO
been so long since i met them
and went back home
teck wee say he would come ton
but he never ):
liersD:



and
i dunno if i shld say i am disappointed or upset

many many, a lot a lot of things happened recently !
and i had been so lazy to update my blog ):
alright
i decided to be seriously frank in my blog
since it's mine =D
so anyone that feel shag/happy/sad/excited
it good n bad depending on how u feel
u can come find me if u r not happy thru =/

last friday!
i went for my first ever business accounting lecture!
went out to have dinner n study with gladys n jun en
i guess i still quite affected by you
after hearing u talking to that whoever guy
but still
yayaayayaaaa
rich is no big fuck(:
and i know u will that way too
i hope u do
be alright(:
you are a tatoo in my heart
i will let go
but i wun forget


last sat !
met up with LJY<33>
damn hungry
ate at mac for breakfast
before coming over to my house to rest frist
den went to east point
FINALLY COLLECTED BACK MY FONE! WOHOOO(:
but sadly):
she dun wish to take foto with me
ROARS
hahahaas
Vanessa n zx n his gf. went over to find us
and we went to eat (:
slack(:
eat again(:
LOL
and i went back to my god-dad house for family gathering
hoho

sunday
basketball training in the morning
fun(:
i still waiting for my leg to be fully okay
waha
went over to jurong
to celebrate
my cousin one year old and another cousin first month
lol
and ate at balastier for dinner
it was hell nice =D

Monday!
OH MY GAWD
business accouting test
i think i just failed it ):
FUCK MS ANG
for saying
a math will benefit in a lot ways in ur future than wad POA can do for u
if i heard her say this again
i will give her a tight slap i tell u
LOL
POA IS FUCKING HARD CAN
(*)@&$@(*$^)
oo
i met up with robert gao/yap zheng hui
and we to tm mac to meet up with si jie and hui min
and we ate (:
talked a lot
o well
i dunno that u would had trust my promise again
and i promise i will try to quit at my best limit(:
i know u would say it not for u
but for the good of me
but still
thank you=D
oo and i went over to 900+ with robert
damn stupid la there-.-



tuesday! yesterday!
HAPPEN FUCKING LOTS OF THING
went over to SGH early in the morning with darling
to check my leg
I PASS MY LEG STRENGTH
LOL WAD A AMAZING THING
but i failed my hamstring test):
lol !
but still
THE DOC CERTIFIED THAT I CAN GO BACK PLAY BASKETBALL LOL ! (:
ok
then after that
i brought darling n her sister to go eat at CS basment
keekoo ramen shop
sumthing lidat
lol
spend 60+ there
i didnt they can eat so mani
they actually finish up everything i order
not bad ah(:
went over to CO
n terror begin
i really feel damn disturb n upset la ):
i am damn sorry
really.
i dunno if things suppose to turn out this way or not
but it still turn out this way
i know you wont be reading this
for一个未开始的爱情
i am sorry.
i dunno how e future will be like
but i doubt we will talk in anyway le bahs
please be alright
haish

okay
another thing
CO is in a great mess
NO BASS
NO PERCUSSION
ONE DIZI
FILLED WITH CONFUSION DE TAN BO YUE
OVER-LIVELY ERHURIAN
BAD ATTENDANCE
NOT A VERY WELL DONE PROPOSAL OF CAMP
oh man
i hope mr wong read this
n do sumtihng about it.

another thing
i trash out n talked with LJY<33
and we broke up):
but we patch within two hours.LOL
and this thing
really make me realised A LOT of things
i dunno what will happen in the future
i dunno if i would be unstable again
but still
WHO CARE
i just gonna live my life happily (:

i feel so fuck
really damn FUCK

hoho
today my gf asked me one Q
pretty funny
she asked.
what thing u regretted in ur life
wow
when i go think about it
den i realise
there is quite a number of stuff i regretted !
n that onli counting from the days i step into sec sch till now !
hohoho
yeahs
i realised that i have changed so much to the worse recently
and i had lost quite a few close ones.
):
yeahs pretty upsetting
sigh!
my exams is coming up
and there is tons of project to catch up
STRESS BODOH !
LOL !










* i just wish to have a carefree life and be just happy and no worries
HAKUNA MATA ):

what's love
roses,presents and kisses
these are the things you told me.

what's concern
iszit just sweettalk and smiles
those outer appearance that u had bluffed me with.

i dun care about all these
i dun beg for fate
u know what i truely need is
your heart


i didnt know how i choose you that time
now that u had change heart
and ignoring me

till now
than i realise i am playing a very stupid game
the rules are set by u
and i just a loser of the game

just whr r u leadine me to
haven u hurt me enough
i am just a normal emotional guy
i just wanna have sum beautiful memories

what is sadness?
iszit tears or iszit being left alone
u only knew how to care about urself
i thought time would put a end up everything
but everytime u turn away from me
my heart bleed


till now
than i realise i am playing a very stupid game
the rules are set by u
and i just a loser of the game


those thousand of different places that we gone to
u said u would remember every pieces of memories that we carved out
thank you love for linking me and you together
now that all is over
u would said u rather not known me in the first
just is who hurt who in the first place
whose tears is the one that filled up the river
whose heart is the one that bleed
who is the one that continue to go out and have fun
who is the one that started all these

cos i just fucking hate it when u have the THIS IS NONE OF MY BUSINESS attitude.

hohoho
yesterday was CCN day for TP
i was late
but still
late is better than never (:

it was hells loads of noise and foods all around business school block man!

it been so long since i sit down n talk to da xiong !

yeahs. she too think that i had change ):
she say i was disappointing !
T_T
anyway
gladys came to find her.
so long since i last saw her.
i think she lost a few pound again.
tsk tsk
and yeah!
it was long since i last talk to her.


went over to CS to find LJY<33
and bring her over to find jac n co
then sent home to inter
aiyoyo
wonder when u will see these since ur com spoilt
but when u seee this
u better rmb it!
EAT UR MEALS
and takkaire of ur body larhs !
roars
spoilt ur body le, next time how to stay at home n be pig !
den i will force u to go study all the way till uni den u know !
really
muz takkaire ):
i will xin tong de ehs!



and and and
i met up with gladys after that
went over to have ice cream
at the shop i know but i dunno how to spell
CS fourth floor that one!
=/
yeahs.
we chat chat chat
been so long since we last did that (:
and YOU
better take good care of ur body la!
of cos i not sumbody that u must listen to larhs.
but really. some activities arent that good?
i scare u chi kui ya.
guys are bastard
u shld. ya. dun trust all of them
LOL !
yeahs. so long. do meet up(:

ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I BLOGGED =/

omg!
hells loads of stuff happen

schools was sucky as usual =/
i really really couldnt adapt i guess !
sigh!
so gonna fail my semm 1
LOL
jia lat
si jie say if i fail my "apple" den i really wu yao ke jiu le
hahaha
i hope i wun fail it-.- it will make me feel so rtd !


and roars
really a lot of things happen nahs!
LJY is <33
so much love(;

anyway
ppl do really study hard for ur history
cos history really do repeat themselve
DAMN FUCK LOR
&@*^$(@*@)@#*(@^@
i was like in such a FUCK MOOD YTD MAN
cant believe
the same thing happen again!
wth !
roars!



i gonna settle all my stuff soon
i promise(:
* i feel like quitting sch seriosuly-__-

i am afraid i would hurt u
really.
maybe one day
i would really fall in love with u
but even till that day
i will still help her out
still be there for her
whenever things happen
yeahs
i had already told u these
these afternoon
i dun think you will be able to tahan la right?


so i dun mind you not waiting
it alright (:

i know i had been alway overreacting about you.
i know u arent mine anymore.
i know i am being irriating when i kpo about you.

not say good friend
i dun even know we are friend.

but yeahs
really
i am worried
fucking worried.



i dunno why
GUI JUN EN
WHY
THE PERSON THAT MAKE ME MOST SHAG
IS YOU
NOT EVEN GLADYS OR SI JIE
IS ALWAY YOU
LOL
I DUN UNDERSTAND WHY

hmms!
today had make up lesson cos of tml public holiday
damn stupid!
so had to wake up early again ):

yeahs.
nvm
i went to watch ironman with xiao mei (:
after waiting SO LONG for her ):
nvm
it was worth the wait! hehs
the show quite nice ehs!
very funny tooooo!
so long since i last catch a show n went out with my xiao mei !
clap clap
next time shld come out more often k!



):
xiao mei this year o lvl
keep study
den no chance to pei me one T_T
next year
my erhu sec three go o lvl also
den become their turn to dao me lerhs
wails ):



gal.
i miss you
i love you
P.S i am worried

wad about us
wad about everything we been through
u know i never wanna lost u
wad am i suppose to do



now that you had gone on your own way.
i am left here all along.




i will change n try to catch up with u i promise

QUEK PEI YUN
is my xiao mei =D
since YEARS ago.

yeahs.she very bu ting hua de
tat why alway quarrel with me
LOL

but lucky she know i do defend for her la (:
otherwise i will be so sad la!
hahaha


but she is sooooooooo good to me de(:
really really
but can be better la
HAHA
=/
i am greedy
otherwise i change xiao mei le hor!

with loves(:

today dun nid go school !
woohoo
laze around whole day yeahs!
blahblah black sheep.


anyway.
to a particular gal out there
=/
i dunno what to say
let nature take it own course bahs!


ok
today main point of blogging
it imba
please
support
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laught

06/6/2004 7:27 pm
Ermm Robert here, Sec1 of PRSS, dey rawks including me!!! No nerds, freedom fighters, veri punkish??? I think it can be an enjoyable skool!!!


he e man dude.
now 2008
he's a grown up man
since 2004
he had been our grp of frenz de role model
he e guy!
he e man!
he e KING !

today first proper day in TP.
ohmygawds!
communication skills
IS LIKE FOUR FUCKING ENGLISH PERIOD
can die bodoh!


blah blah.
i dunno how my class will end up as.
really
hope it will be fun ><

I SAW GAL MUM N SIS TODAY
talk talk to them
i think kinda of first time
her mum so friendly to me
i rmb last time
she alway stare at me when talking one
LOL


anyway damn pekchek
FUCK SIA
nb
if i ever celebrate birthday
for the sake of
getting a fucking birthday present
cb
dun come help me celebrate k
DUN COME

o well.
i guess today happen quite a lot of stuff!
morning went back to basketball training.
was quite fun
had really a lot of sweats.
but still
leg hurts.
cant reallly move about.
cos leg really hurts-.-

yeahs. went home
tried to cook maggie mee
but end up
it so nan ci that i pour it away ):


met up with erhu-ian
ate at soul garden
had fun. laughter. food. there
went to open plaza.
play cake
we are all so full with cream smell !
we had fun (:
little bits of stuff.
cheer up our life
right (:
hehsshshs



anyway. tml tu di birthday!
i sitll haven tot of wad to buy =/
stupid cabell
say will help me think
till now oso haven lor
grr!

its been so long since i blooged ):
times really flies.
today start poly orentation!
seriously
i was almost bored till death!
i even fall aslp!
sigh):
and i dun even know anybody in my class.
sigh wonder wad life will be like ):

tml is gonna be another orentation day again.
guess it would be better bahs.
dunno why leis
there is ppl who enjoy it too.
gal enjoy it wors.
she say it was very funnn (:



gal..
there is sooo many thing i wana say. so many thing i wanna ask.
i know to u it all over.
but really
sum stuff
i really wanna know
sum stuff
i really wanna show my concern.
but i really dunno how to ask. how to say
i really afraid u would get angry
for me being so kpo.
i dunno
really.
i love u
but i duno what to do
);

有时,一个人的表情和眼神,会让你相信一个人.
不知对或错.
但也只好这样吧.


i am damm tired.zzzz

i am awake!
it onli 8 o clock.
yawns.
i am damn damn tired !
afternoon got TP camp!
zz
wonder how it will be like
i am leaving half way tml!
to go to chalet
wonder if i am able to get out =/


anyway
ytd went out with GAO n CO
brought two shirt and one belt
still lack of one bag D+

070408
it been a year gal
but i still love you dearly, miss you dearly.
i believe at that point of time
nobody wanna it to happen.
perhaps
to you
it was blessing in disguist bahs
cos you had found out that u woudl be more happy without me?
i had realise that recently
perhaps you are right
we are just too different
that why my care and concern arent care and concern to u
sometime i wish i could just stay on
but.. =/



i wun make a big fuss.
i will just live in my own world with ur memories.

seriously wasn't in the best of mood nowaday.
maybe because i had confirmed that i had lost someone out there.
two more days
will be one years le
hais.


many many things had happened recently
dunno
i sort of become more bad temper
i not a pai kia larhs
but i know i not that guai either.


u were the reason. you are the reason. you will be the reason.
for the tears dropped on my erhu ):

my hp spoilt
so using my old phone now
saw plenty of sms that we once sent each other
i miss the moment
i know i cant get it back
sorry for being a idiot in ur life.
sorry.



i hate being like this
but i am sorry

finally,
things moved on.

met up with jac they all on monday and tuesday
awful things happen.
kinda of sad.
but ya. things will turn up fine i guess.

cant get out of home today
so guess will be rotting all day long.


i wont woo you
but i will love u
i will have no complains
and just be there for u
i promise

a person in love is indeed stupid.
hmms!
no laa. this sentence is not just about me
but just that i just read a blog
and i found out that a girl is stupidly in love
maybe she feel blessed and loved
but looking at what happening to her
i think that she just living in the own world and giving false hope to herself
lying to herself and lying to the people around her.
i just hope that one day she wake up
and realise what she had is all a fake thing
that she couldnt continue lie to herself
when the truth pop up right infront of her
and tt she was so stupid to put him as everything in her heart
and to realise that everything was just a blank space.
and to realise that she mistrust a guy again.
when that day happen
i hope she could get up to her feet again bahs!
which i think will be kinda of hard? =/


today wake up at three am.
to go sao mu !
it was kinda of okay
kinda of tired now.
i today realise one of my cousin is really quite big.


and that stupid TP dun let me go in-.-
fucks
now i need to resubmit some forms
and get down to TP
before i can get in
and by 040408
last year this date
CO GET GWH =D
-.- ya
so by next friday i muz get down to TP
or i no school !
ahhhh!


anyway
i think i nvr mention this
my leg hurts again
and i scared that it break again
now walking will limpD=
how how !



u said u will pei me.
but yet
u say just dun do stupid stuff next time.