Friday, February 29, 2008

hohoho today is 29/2/08
LEAP YEAR
and i watch the movie
it was kinda of nice
wahahaa.
but i dun think this kinda of thing can happen in real life anyway
love AREN'T that beautiful

yea so ya
sigh

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

yawns. it 1013 am now.and i am pretty tired. yawnzxzxxz
went to work at east coast part again last nite. reach home at twelve.
it was pretty okay. only had five tables at section B.hohohoho.
anyway
i dun think i sound or look like china peeps. WHY DO THEY KEEP ASK ME WHICH PART OF CHINA AM I FROM. even kenneth dad think that i am from china. wth =(
this job is cool. after i reach home and bathe. there is onli one thing that i had energy to do. that is SLEEP.


dun feel like working today~~

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

blah blah.yesterday went to marina square with debbie n sharyl
sharyl ( an idiot with direction ) make us walk in circles and found out that she actually din know where is the shop that we are suppose to go !
it's quite safe ppl. to say sharyl in this blog=D cos she said that she dun read my blog =(
and
DEBBIE I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS. SO DO TAG =D


its kinda of fun talking to them. so yeah =)
but debbie keep say i say them dun have tiao jian
ok la! sorry la ! say wrongly ma =/


but yeah. i hope i get the ice cream crew job so that sharyl will whine to me n beg for the job. wahahaaha! ^^



and i saw a nike shirt that i wanan buy !!! ARGH

Sunday, February 24, 2008

我曾经以为 爱上你不会错
你如今变得 让我没有把握
曾经的承诺
对与错 没过头有不算是什么
这逝去的爱 如何能复活
你过的生活 似乎很快乐
我虽然难过 爱让我懦弱
付出的太多 无法解脱
这心痛 你能明白吗
我应该如何才不会是这结果
我爱你爱得好辛苦 爱的好孤独
爱的没有退路 我好无助
抹不去的痛楚 忍不住的哭
这是你给我的礼物
我爱你爱的好辛苦
爱的好孤独 爱的不能醒悟
你好残酷
我看着来路
你并不在乎 也许吧
我无所谓 一个人去漫步

Thursday, February 21, 2008

it sound stupid.
it sound ironic.
but still
it what it is.

i had said to euu before that i may had five true friends.
there are three i never wanna lost
there are tw0 i dun wan them to be my friends. maybe not just friends


my pride.
maybe i have to betray myself. my mindset. my pride. my belief.
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
if i have to do it.
i would do it
for euu i would.

i know that on monday u are very very very VERY angry/upset/pekchek
oh no no. maybe u are more worried about him than angry with me.
but very well
i was too very very very VERY angry/upset/pekchek
not by the news.
cos i expected it
but by the way u said it.
i din really show it infront of u
otherwise things will get too nasty?
but maybe different from u
i was more upset than angry.
cos i though u change
the word is thought. i hope u dun. dun let me down for the last time.


i also wish that maybe one day we could hang up like we used to before.
but really
it kinda of impossibe.
but i not giving up hope
i would alway showered you with love, care and concern.
i know i had broken some promise infront of u before
perhaps it just some olden stuff.
but i still rmb. maybe u do too.
things are different now.
maybe we are still the same.
but things are different.
u had a stead now.
i WANT to, i LOVE to. treat you like the way i had before
but it gotta be very silly
cos u had a stead now
and things are different.
and i cant treat u like how i treat u before already.


but in case u didnt realise
i dun have some superpower ability to read my mind.
i din know he is ur stead on sat
i only know that he is jio-ing you
i disturb u so much so much
cos you spend so much time with them
not with us.
maybe becos things are different
but maybe u didnt realise
sumtime friends need you as much as ur boyfriend need you.
not talking about saturday stuff
but its a daily stuff



once again i said it again.
if euu need my help or wadsoever
if euu get hurt again.
i would still be there.
find
me.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

life is funny
way too funny for me to take it.



round one : all e best to you. but seriously. you changed

round two : i found out about this accidentally. and it really hurt a lot. gal. really a lot. i din know you said this. i never believed u would say this. if you just fucking wan me to appeal out. say it? if u just fucking wan me to fuck off. say it.


and really
this is really god damn fuck up.
and i cant take it.
my life is here
take it.
i CANT move on
and
i DUN WAN move on

Sunday, February 17, 2008

i dunno if u would read this.


wo yi ran hen ai ni.
you knew that you are the onli thing i had
i knew some stuff cant be force
but sorry i cant control myself


i dunno wad went wrong.
maybe i was in the wrong


i am really so afraid to lost you.
my life onli come to play when you came in
i am really so afraid to lost you
i told myself not to cry
but i just couldnt control myself.
i didnt know being friends is so difficult
because i really wanna you to be my lover.

我拼了命的追上你的脚步 ; 为什么你却使劲地把我推开
我真的很爱你
真的不想矢去你
你留下来好吗
我真的非常需要你
没有你
我的生活要整要过




but i will alway be there.
if you need me just to be there.
i would be.
i dun mind.
i really dont.


Thursday, February 14, 2008

thank you for the two hours valentine's date =D
had lunch over @ seafood harvest at bugis !
took neoprint together. heh!
love to see your smile=))


went over to TM to meet up with robert.
pei him eat LJS
played pool for a hour

headed to school !
same old thing at CO
enjoy the conversation with everybody


catch P.S i love you with robert at nite!
he coming over my hse to ton !
we rent two dvd movies and buy 5 cup noodle. wahahaa


i wanna catch P.S i love you with darling too!


ok. back to some sad points

no more jack's place, fish n co and stuff likedat le =(
no more new shirts, shoes, shorts, chain n stuff le =(
i gonna eat chai fan everyday again man!
cup noodles too!


cos
I HAVE NO MORE MONEY AFTER TODAY
T_T

Monday, February 11, 2008

i sincerely hope that

i have a wonderful V day

Sunday, February 10, 2008

I AM DYING !!!!!

aww. i am sick ! had a bad stomach day yesterday!
i think mixing lie jiu and medicine was a wrong choice =(
today wake up
throat pain
sneezing
coughing
headache
D=
soooooooooo xin ku la !



gal. i miss you=(

Saturday, February 09, 2008

wo zhi dao ni yuan yi pei wo
but
dui bu qi bahs
wo yao pei wo de ren
bu shi ni

yupps. i have not been in a good mood for very long

althought today win nearly to 50 dollars. but i arent happy at all=(



gal ! i really miss you!




i never gave up on our love <3

Friday, February 08, 2008

sometime, some stories just ended in a very sad way.

雨不停落下来
花怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人欣赏悲哀

只剩下无奈
我一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何say goodbye
你比我清楚
还要我说明白
爱太深会
让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡
今后都不管
只要你能愉快
有一句感慨
还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看那些片段还在不在

yea. this song upset me alot! D=

but but but

today a girl really turn me on!
LOL
she is really very god damn sexy
oh mi gosh!~

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

today is new year eve!
and a gal prank call me !
it was kinda of funny.

part of the conversation
me : what u wearing?
she : red top. white bottom
me : i wearing my school uniform
she : ya right. i never wear anytihng lor likedat
me : wahs sui ! take picture let me see can
she : what u mean sia
me : i now sibei horny lor!
LOL

another one
me : what ur name again
she : mary
me: i little lamb ehs

she said her name was mary lee jia wen
and she say my name is suppose to be jason lim
LOL I DUNNO WHAT SHE WAN OSO


i dun think she dare to call again
cos she suppose to meet me at tamp mrt at 4 today
i went over cos sent nz n freddy there + i need to deposit some of my money into my bank
but she dun dare to show up!

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

I REALLY DUNNO WHAT THE FUCK I DO WRONG. SERIOUSLY.

zz
really damn piss off.
freak sia



sometimes.

i realise really there is a lot of things i dunno
yeah.things move on
just that i didn't realise it
really
i dunno why
yea
i am upset
really
i am

i guess
some stuff just never end with ED

Sunday, February 03, 2008

the days our heart beat together.
the night i sent you home.
the moment i hurt you.


actually i do find myself living in the past.
yea many people say that to me too.
i do realise there is soooo many things i never manage to let go.
sometime i wish i could be heartless a bit
there is just sooo many things i dun have the courage to say or to do.
there are so many things i regretted doing and not doing.
but now
i am practically left with nothing.



i know i am a very sensitive person. really.
whenever things happen. i may not say anything. my face would change.
i really dun think emo is good for health
but i just really think too much.
there is not much self-defence i could do.



there was time that i tried protecting myself.
i never give the whole of myself
i never allow sumbody to understand me completely.
there would be so many secret in my heart
those dark secret that i would never wanna share with anybody.



but when i give my heart out.
it never came back.



a girl once told me
sorry but it just all infatuation.
another one said
i really hate you being likedat.
the third one said
things can never be the same anymore.


me too.
i am afraid of those nights that tears brought me to sleep.

Friday, February 01, 2008

yesterday went over to school to help ms soh with her 2 sec one classes! after that went over to science centre to see mummies and etc and stuff.
it was kinda of fun actually.
cos it was e first time i see sum1 laugh till face cramp
a guy that laugh till he cry.
and a gal that eye is so big.it so freaking scary.LOL.
i found a new gangster in pasir ris sec.
his name is call jin leong.
and he really look like gangster la!
but he's e one that will laugh tilll face cramp.
so i guess he muz be acting fierce all e time and have not smile for a million years.



and today i went over simei to have lunch with gladys=D
sorry arhs. woke u up TWICE.
hehs.so pai seis.
we ate at. i dunno wad e shop name.
but it kinda of nice.
it pasta
with a tiny winy lobster.
hahaha.
but i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo SAD.
i am sensitive-.-
nvm.
anyway.
i will prepare sumthing special for u de ok! for that special day =D



i realise i am a very guai de guai kia
very very goooooooooood =D