i just wanna let you know
everything i do
i put in my heart and soul

just so u know
this feeling is taking control

i may be gone forever
but these memories is staying for life
as it gonna get buried

R.I.P

SIGHZXZXZX, some people just don't have the balls to talk to people face to face D; OOOO i forget that she is a gal, no wonder she is ball-less, no guts shit.
hey yo ! buay song lai, say it out yo ! dun bottle up everything than later u need to do all sort of pumping to pump out ur anger yo! anyway pumping dun suit you seriously, i swear i gonna fucking puke if i ever gonna see you pump, so please dont pump alright ? D:
and gals, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE shave ur armpit hair, ok fine, even if u are lazy to, dun wear sleeve-less when u didnt shave can? PLEASE IT FUCKING DISGUSTING ! oh my fuck!
and dont role play olay? dun wear one like reporter shit and try to act one mother fucker, oh man D: it dont look nice really, it show how a shit you are (:
and oh oh oh, did i mention that u love to be one leader but but this world dun need leader to lead bitches, i am sure they are bitch enough to be independent so ya, so i dun think those of your kinds need a leader like you. a FUCK BITCH dun lead dude, they ka kui kui, tan dua lui !

u broke my defination of love
and i no longer know what's love anymore
pardon me



just because i was once the best of the best
i no longer able to let go of my past

didnt really have much to say.

i really need quite a bit of luck to handle with my poly work. fuck it.

mood been pretty bad as well

pretty much things happening

pretty confusing and dramatic

and i kinda of feel sick with sore throat, cough and block nose.

and i injured my right shoulder again ( WAD DE FARK MAN )




and today i truely see the wizards of street basketball
amazed +D

My life is pretty much of a screwed up now, now that I could no longer blame anybody other than myself. Felt so much of a loser. Zzz. I smashed my heart, look for the long lost memories through the pieces of my heart, and review it and told myself, : it’s all just none other than lies. Everything fit in too nicely that I could no longer run away from it. Yet I hate myself for telling myself that all of these is so so true. Why? I asked myself, I couldn’t found any answer.

Things that happen like a decade ago came back haunting me, it sucks BIG TIME.


And and AND, yeo ching kiat’s bank financial bank never seem to be coming back track, been downsloping since dunno when. ROAR! );<


Didn’t have the mood to go basketball training, hell it.
My mood is just so fucking bad ):



Maybe I just wanna end everything here and now.
Cos I no longer wish to hurt anybody anymore.
Now that I am in such confusing state, dun ask me about R.S thingy.
Since things had not started/comeback, let just leave thing as it is now.
我恨我自己,不会去爱,也不懂的去爱,更不敢去爱
不用愿谅我,就这样忘了我吧

有时,就是爱你, 所以不想伤害你
就算你愿意,我也不会原谅我自己

HAIYA !
anyway si jie, if today wad you said is true
i really dont know what to do ):
my memories will be soo sooo sooo broken T.T


and Hui min,
dun so sad le larhs, cheer up ok!
如果,也许,所以 =D
world will be peace if thing can be restart la hor!

today was feeling quite kinda of stupid yet refresh after talking to somebody in particular.

what u said really really do shake me.
is it quite true?
am i still me
or had i lost me to forever

will i be able to command the crowd again

cant really bear to think about it.

anyway i see some light for B.A today(:

really thanks si jie and hui min for trying to teach me
i still dont know if i could pass still.
aha. thanks(:


i alway wish to go back to the past
but i know i cant
so i just gotta be strong !


i really going into mia soon
take it as it for my studies bahs (: takkaires !

you were the first person that had made something for me to drink out of worry that i will not take care of myself, i still remember u rushing over to my house area to pass me the drink, make sure i had my lunch, make sure that i had fallen aslp soundly on my bed then u left on ur own.

the first person i had asked for stead, the person that i trust to bring me out of my terrible past.even before we are together, i knew i can depend on you to take good care of me (:

thinking of lame jokes, doing retarded action just to get me to smile whenever i am down/pissed or angry, you never failed to be by myside to pei me go through my problems that i had face in these period of time that we are together.

i had never doubted your love to me.
i am always lousy at making choices when it come to relationship.
i never wanted to hurt u sooo soooo deeeep really.
sicne the beginning, i really really love you so much so much
you had been too good to me, really, thank you (:

it not because i am afraid that i had not enough space for myself that why i dont wanna patch
it not because of the temper and attitude u flare at me when you are in a bad mood

it because of me ME me
i had let you down
i am soo soo sorrrrry


now that my heart is being divided.
i felt so lost
i dunno where to go either.
i am sooo sooo lost
that i dont even know if i am doing the right thing
i am sooo sooo sorrry
i dont know if i would regret
but i know
i never wanted to hurt ANYBODY

you shouldnt wait for me.

misses

been kinda of long since i blog.
been quite happening
zz

somehow i hope i dont make the wrong decision on thursday, take it as i let you down. sorry yeahs? u gotta be better without me. i hope u can do it and dun do silly thing and ruin ur own life ya? if u do nid help, i am sure most willing to give a helping hand ok!


有些事, 就算是一天的恋爱, 我也不会后悔



now tat my heart is in pieces
i dun wish to make any decision so soon
just in case i gonna do sum fuck up thing again
z

been such a long time since i blog ):
u guys must be missing me i know ( HAHA!)
today was pretty alright
was on a positive notes cos i passed my econs paper ! LOL!
i was like super duber happy laaaaa!
dunno why
i will buck up on my study i swear!

dont really have any thing happening these few days

went over to teck wee chalet on sunday n stay over
watch euro cup final there
played bowling( i top player LOL )
ate at superdog ( will never go dere again sia i tell u )
and ah tech drink a drink that cost two thirty and it tiny LOL
and i learn to play a new card game call 55 ( i get first blood NB ! )


and o yeahs
lin jia yan darling top up her prepaid card le =D
finally can find her easily and she can find me more easier and dun need to wait for me for soooo long !


anyway had a talk with some SP people just now
yea i will give face alright(: