Nobody touches my girl.
I swear to god I will make the guy pay if I ever know who is he.

So I am done with my tonsil surgery. hell loads of pain and I am glad that its all over. Doc had been really nice to give lotsa of MC to stay home and rest.

I had been using my free time to do some exercise and cleaning up the house and watching lotsa lotsa movie.hahaha.

I am quite determined this time round to get back to jogging and gym-ing.
Jogging is a chore. really a god damn chore. and i only can start from the right minimum and it really suck.
okay so far this week was the first week I start back training after my surgery !
Monday- jogged 1.6km brisk walk 800m.( Morning without breakfast only with a glass of water.)
Tuesday-jogged 1.6km brisk walk 800m.( Morning without breakfast only with a glass of water.)
Wednesday. HIIT with Punching bag in the afternoon and Jogging 1.6km walk 800m in the night
Thursday. GYM !! Finally hitting back the gym with Shoulder and tricep training.
Friday. Rest day.
Saturday. GYM . Chest training. Dont think will be able to go jogging in the night as will be meeting the guys for Kenneth birthday.

Aim to be able to jog 3km ( which what i usually jog in the past in secondary school day )
For gym wise. I don't really know what I want. I am just training to sweat it out at the moment. I not those crazy kind of guy that will go count how many calories i have to eat daily or have to do 50 kg weights to be strong. I just wanna feel healthier i guess !

Diet wise I have been able to eat normal food, have been recovering pretty well since surgery. Just not spicy or too hot.
BUT. I had been on extremely low carbs, for jian fei purposes. hahaha. not zero carbs but just at my best to have as little carbs as possible. Mummy always scold me for this, she say must eat rice then will have strength., so lan lan if i eat dinner with her i will have to eat one spoon of rice.

AND THE BIGGEST NEWS FOR THIS DEAD BLOG IS.................




TODAY IS THE 25th DAY OF ZERO STICKS !! THREE MORE DAYS TO COMPLETE IQUIT 28 DAYS.WOOHOOOOO.



Dearest Girl, Really kinda wonder how are you.... be alright and be happy alright ? love you !

this stupid haze is really too much ):<
Dearest girl please be alright . stay indoor and avoid going out le ba. take care ! (:

Sorry. but we are not fit to call each other " F R I E N D "

the upsetting part is not about knowing zero thing about you
                             not about you not giving a single fuck about me.
is that now we are less than friends
yet it doesn't even affect you a single bit.
I hate being so insignificant.

but you seem fine and happier. and i wish you all the best.

Seeing my friend bringing her Pet to the vet remind of the day u suddenly asked me to come over your house to accompany you because one of your pet hamster was sick. still rmb how panic and upset you was.
but still glad u ask me to pei you go down.
Dearest pocky please take care of your owner, nights that you see her upset in her own room. that she wont tell anybody else but maybe she will cuddle you up and whisper into your ear. please be there for her and tell her she must be strong and there is somebody out there always willing to lent her a listening ear, a shoulder for her lean and a chest for her to cry on.

well two days ago happened something weird. and nah today this first part is not about Gladys.
Dear little Goldfish.
I wanna write it down in the blog because its something i wanna remember.
To see you so drunk and so upset. totally emotional breakdown.
I also heart pain uh!
I must really admit i was taken aback when you talked about the past.
And of course it was totally my fault that i hurt you before.
But maybe because I felt really unwanted recently
I was really happy to know that somebody actually really loved me before in the past.
Trust me.
recently i suspect about everything. Friends ? are they really friends?
lovers ? Did they really ever love me?
But coming out from your mouth when you drunk and the certain details that u remember really make me think i am such an ass to hurt you in the past due to my indecisive-ness.
I sincerely hope that you are gonna feel better and get back to your cheerful self ! (:



Yesterday went down to Shirley 21st Bday chalet.
Nothing much to talk about.
-You don't even care or asked me if i am coming
-Your movie plan with all of them didn't even include me although the plan didn't work out
-You was just busy using your phone the whole night. We didn't even chat.

So i guess this is it?

Your tendency to just simply ignore me really just make me look like a idiot.
and it prove how important I am to you.






I really feel so depressed....
Death is the only way out.
and the only thing that made me scare is
I scare I will be disappointed as how the idea of me totally gone from your life doesn't affect you the slightest bit. I will be the saddest ghost in this world.....

I hate how we are not talking
I hate how your Perfect new life has totally nothing to do with me

 Have you ever wondered, if you would allow me to surprise you or cheer you up, I might really make you very happy?